End of Y3T1.
I knew I have been long time didn't update, I am really busy and lazy
I couldn't imagine what my blog will be after I start working :(
Let's me record some moment/ stuff during my internship first
Internship just a bit bore when I have nothing to do -.-
August and September is resting month, we do not have any fair or event within this two month.
So, my job is only doing my report and research for my fyp.
Quite bored, but no choice, still need to come office everyday.
Somehow, I helped my mei doing her job, lol, she since had a lot pressure than me.
In my deep down heart, I hope this intern never end so I no need to go back Kampar to face the reality or, maybe you.
I really like my colleagues, maybe just we know each other not longer, everything still can tolerant
My lady boss is so funny people, she like to talk and what she talk is so damn funny.
She make our working environment not that pressure, of course, I buy everything she talk lol
I really feel satisfied to work here, small organization, only 4 person working currently.
When you earn a lot, branded is just easy thing you can get.
My colleagues is actually so obsess with branded items, they discuss Prada, Chanel, LV, Céline, etc everyday in offices.
In my campus, my girls and me mostly talk about study, assignment or handsome guy.
But its really different in working place, they talk about branded, clothes or travel. I cant fit in all this topics, I have no money, I have no much travel experience and I don't have nicey clothes.
They spending money like nobody,very luxury and sumptuousness.
Whatever, everything had it price, you must pay the price to get what you want.
They are rich but they need to work a lot, day and night, pressure keep pushing them. So they deserved what they deserve.
I understand myself, emo will kill me therefore keeping my boring routine is actually help me defeat my emoness.
Although I already try to live my own but I still feel extremely hurt when facing you.
Our relationship gone, like how you leave me before. We will never ever getting back together.
Maybe just because of that reason, I quit upset. "Never, you and me."
We used to be so close and intimate and sweet but now we are stranger, more than stranger.
Heart breaking is just a moment, the process can kill you.
Now, I still alive, still survive like myself.
People look down me but I never look down myself. I know sometimes I quite stubborn and quit noob in decision making. I afraid to make a wrong decision. It's not easy.
How's my life? I feel my freedom now. Single mean freedom right?
So I eat what I want to eat, sleep till nobody care, working day to night and driving everywhere
Life is not that upset then.
Sometimes, people tend to think more when someone over passion. Well, it actually just a friendly symbol.
I don't want a relationship, I just want a friend.
Men and women can't just be a normal friend, really? I just want a friend, that's it.
I never expect I will lost you, I though we will be very good friend but seem god not at our side.
I mourning our "death" friendship.
I realize I cant attract anyone anymore, my confident, my charming all gone so I don't know how I should carry on.
I no that talk-active and smiley anymore. If smile is a symbol, I think I even lost my symbol.
So it consider I am in negative path? No, I am so positive because I knew my problems, that's good isn't?
I felt really glad in my current situation, I enter good company and broke up didn't bring me down.
Just too good I still manage to live my life. Perhaps, it lack of fun or meaning but this much more enough than what I wish.
Nothing to complain or sad about, just lose a friend, I will get it back when I fully recover.
I love to eat and I think I wont get fat. It's so wrong.
I think my stomach is too generous to absorb my sadness so I keep eating, especially dessert.
Dessert erase pain isn't?
I love ice-cream. During outstation, I didn't miss BR even once. Yep, BR certainly make me fat and make my face turn even round :(
Stomach arh, why you so cruel? you should stop me to fill you up.
Every girl afraid of getting weight, and somehow I am getting fat, on my way to reach the unbelievable weight.
Congratulation me, and I don't think its good sign :(
I know I am impulsive and will do many thing out of expect
One of it is, I perm my hair to curl, in my though, I never think its will be so old and unsuitable after I perm it.
The fact is I look like super unnatural and over-mature.
4 day after, my rebound my hair back -.-
I know I so wasteful and unthinkable, but once I try and its doesn't work, I will give up
At least I try doesn't?
The only thing I scare after intern is just *go back Kampar*
Kampar, the place I like and hate the most, is all because you.
But I have to go back for ensure my result have a "P" symbol.
So I start to plan, to avoid to meet with you.
I went back on Sunday, reached Kampar is around 5pm.
Then I having short high tea with apple and chye hong, dinner with my housemate and supper with apple and chye hong again.
The next day, lunch with chye hong, high tea with emily, dinner with coursemate and supper with eddie.
After supper, I have a drink with keeyi them.
I dont give myself a break or any resting time to avoid I might thinking to meet you.
So I actually so glad chye hong decided to stay with me. :)
Then late night I receive your call and I dont dare to pick up just because I know you wanna meet me :(
Im so sorry, I really not courage to meet you. I not yet ready and I dont know what should we talk
My dear S, you dont know how I survive without you so you can meet me without any concern.
But I am not, I not like you, I can't easily put down the one who love me and hurt me the most.
Maybe you are thinking we still can be best friend or what, I wish to be your best friends too but I need time.
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我 眼中的自己 每一天都愿意 活的越来越像我爱的自己
I couldn't imagine what my blog will be after I start working :(
Let's me record some moment/ stuff during my internship first
Internship just a bit bore when I have nothing to do -.-
August and September is resting month, we do not have any fair or event within this two month.
So, my job is only doing my report and research for my fyp.
Quite bored, but no choice, still need to come office everyday.
Somehow, I helped my mei doing her job, lol, she since had a lot pressure than me.
In my deep down heart, I hope this intern never end so I no need to go back Kampar to face the reality or, maybe you.
I really like my colleagues, maybe just we know each other not longer, everything still can tolerant
My lady boss is so funny people, she like to talk and what she talk is so damn funny.
She make our working environment not that pressure, of course, I buy everything she talk lol
I really feel satisfied to work here, small organization, only 4 person working currently.
When you earn a lot, branded is just easy thing you can get.
My colleagues is actually so obsess with branded items, they discuss Prada, Chanel, LV, Céline, etc everyday in offices.
In my campus, my girls and me mostly talk about study, assignment or handsome guy.
But its really different in working place, they talk about branded, clothes or travel. I cant fit in all this topics, I have no money, I have no much travel experience and I don't have nicey clothes.
They spending money like nobody,very luxury and sumptuousness.
Whatever, everything had it price, you must pay the price to get what you want.
They are rich but they need to work a lot, day and night, pressure keep pushing them. So they deserved what they deserve.
I understand myself, emo will kill me therefore keeping my boring routine is actually help me defeat my emoness.
Although I already try to live my own but I still feel extremely hurt when facing you.
Our relationship gone, like how you leave me before. We will never ever getting back together.
Maybe just because of that reason, I quit upset. "Never, you and me."
We used to be so close and intimate and sweet but now we are stranger, more than stranger.
Heart breaking is just a moment, the process can kill you.
Now, I still alive, still survive like myself.
People look down me but I never look down myself. I know sometimes I quite stubborn and quit noob in decision making. I afraid to make a wrong decision. It's not easy.
How's my life? I feel my freedom now. Single mean freedom right?
So I eat what I want to eat, sleep till nobody care, working day to night and driving everywhere
Life is not that upset then.
Sometimes, people tend to think more when someone over passion. Well, it actually just a friendly symbol.
I don't want a relationship, I just want a friend.
Men and women can't just be a normal friend, really? I just want a friend, that's it.
I never expect I will lost you, I though we will be very good friend but seem god not at our side.
I mourning our "death" friendship.
I realize I cant attract anyone anymore, my confident, my charming all gone so I don't know how I should carry on.
I no that talk-active and smiley anymore. If smile is a symbol, I think I even lost my symbol.
So it consider I am in negative path? No, I am so positive because I knew my problems, that's good isn't?
I felt really glad in my current situation, I enter good company and broke up didn't bring me down.
Just too good I still manage to live my life. Perhaps, it lack of fun or meaning but this much more enough than what I wish.
Nothing to complain or sad about, just lose a friend, I will get it back when I fully recover.
I think my stomach is too generous to absorb my sadness so I keep eating, especially dessert.
Dessert erase pain isn't?
I love ice-cream. During outstation, I didn't miss BR even once. Yep, BR certainly make me fat and make my face turn even round :(
Stomach arh, why you so cruel? you should stop me to fill you up.
Every girl afraid of getting weight, and somehow I am getting fat, on my way to reach the unbelievable weight.
Congratulation me, and I don't think its good sign :(
I know I am impulsive and will do many thing out of expect
One of it is, I perm my hair to curl, in my though, I never think its will be so old and unsuitable after I perm it.
The fact is I look like super unnatural and over-mature.
4 day after, my rebound my hair back -.-
I know I so wasteful and unthinkable, but once I try and its doesn't work, I will give up
At least I try doesn't?
The only thing I scare after intern is just *go back Kampar*
Kampar, the place I like and hate the most, is all because you.
But I have to go back for ensure my result have a "P" symbol.
So I start to plan, to avoid to meet with you.
I went back on Sunday, reached Kampar is around 5pm.
Then I having short high tea with apple and chye hong, dinner with my housemate and supper with apple and chye hong again.
The next day, lunch with chye hong, high tea with emily, dinner with coursemate and supper with eddie.
After supper, I have a drink with keeyi them.
I dont give myself a break or any resting time to avoid I might thinking to meet you.
So I actually so glad chye hong decided to stay with me. :)
Then late night I receive your call and I dont dare to pick up just because I know you wanna meet me :(
Im so sorry, I really not courage to meet you. I not yet ready and I dont know what should we talk
My dear S, you dont know how I survive without you so you can meet me without any concern.
But I am not, I not like you, I can't easily put down the one who love me and hurt me the most.
Maybe you are thinking we still can be best friend or what, I wish to be your best friends too but I need time.
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我 眼中的自己 每一天都愿意 活的越来越像我爱的自己
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