End of My Y2S3.

After finish my Y2T3, I officially is year 3 student now
What does mean year 3? The closer step to graduate?
I just hope everything will be fine, just be fine

This semester, I done 2 event which really meaningful to me
I can't tell how satisfies after I completed my job, just appreciated every moment we spend together
My event friends, my coursemate and my housemate, I am really glad to know you all, you all spark my uni life
Now we gonna separate, I hope this temporary separate won't change anything between us
This semester, my most worst semester, maybe?
I broke up, I crashed, I can't focus, I did mistakes, I am not myself anymore
I usually didn't put it serious but I want to take serious now
I really suck in this semester, I thought I told to someone I may feel good but everything seem worst
I sick of pretend, my tears, my sadness, my hurt
I wish something can get me back to my normal life, I am losing now
I got no motivation, no aim, no goal, no plan, this is not what supposes to be

My mom was start nagging at me, I know my life is suck
But I can't change it, I want but I can't
Why everything look so meaningless? Meaningless is part of my life?
Just, set me free. :(