Missing YOU much.

Week 4 already Assignment and Presentation was began.
i quite busy recently.
This semester obviously more harder than last semester.
All courses i take was theory part, and its really a harder things for me.
My life in new semester still same although X7 already gradually disappear in my life.
We like a friends just say hi and bye.
But still can know a lot of new friens in this semester too.
Starting build a new socialize and build pure relationship.
Don't know how to described my life recently
Study, dating and assignment discussion fill up my life.
Is this not a good things?
This semester not like last semester only sleep after midnight.
My life quite normal a bit.
Well. Yum Cha at midnight also less.
Most of the time, stay at hostel do nothings.
But i still not enough time to finished my things.
Yup. Uni student always lack of time to finish their work.
They like last minute work the outcome more perfect. XD.

I don't want let emotional control my life
After i starting a new relationship, new status, somethings was changed
Less communicate with friends and my dinner sure having with S
Sometime, really feel bad cant join in their topics.
Uni life not smooth like imagine. Relationship with other people become important.
But who will control my life? Everybody think i have S already then sure no need their help.
Concern become less and less. I miss the life before.
Not one will concern me what happen occurs when i at outside.
If i injured, scolded by someone, some bad things happen?
They will only think, the problem will be solved by S. Isn't?
I must strong enough when i be alone at here.
Everybody think i strong actually maybe not.
I lost my most important people in my life that force me be strong.
But you know how much i practice, i put how many effort to stand up and smile in front people?
I care all people who care me a lot.
Actually i really miss daddy now. I cant cry because i promised him i wont.
Sometime, i thought i wont miss him badly anymore but the fact is i will miss him when i alone.
So i hate alone. I have a lot of friends who give me many encourage and now i have S.
But still missing somethings in my life.
Sky really big enough to store my trouble?
S say some people believe God jealousy people who very kind-hearted so God want good people go heaven accompany God. Isn't real?
I hope so. So i only can give up to hold his hand.
Daddy, I miss you.
那你现在过得好不好呢? 我过得很好 真的.
S already become a part in my life, Sometime he got some pattern really like my daddy.
S dote me enough, We sure can wear graduation square hat graduate together happily.
I await that day. I miss u.
Don't spoil me although i know i wont so easily spoiled by you.
But i slowly slowly depend you. Then it will become a habit.
S, I believe you no matter how. You already become my spiritual supporter.